A few months ago I was depressed as hell, not knowing what the purpose of life is and life was basically hell for me. until one day I saw this movie called "Scott Pilgrim vs the world" and (got completely obsessed, mostly with the soundtracks, and) I'm like Hey, life is worth living. you just need to enjoy the things of your own age rather than watching fucking manchester by the sea for christ sake goddammit why the fuck are you watching manchester by the sea??
so I decided to cool off, take things easy for a while and chill. what I didn't notice was that I turned my brain off, and got onto social media, which made me addicted to it. not because I couldn't stop or anything, because (A: This 1 girl, and B: ) I didn't want to stop! because I simply didn't want to think. seriously, life is a lot more fun when you don't have to worry about anything!
But a while ago I realized that not only I don't tend to think anymore, I also lost the ability to think. which is horrific. not only all my friends know me as the wise guy and they come for me for advice (LOL, Unimaginable but it's true), I also know me as the wise guy and ask myself for advice!! What advice can an addicted prick give me for my life?? besides, I'm pathetic! the old me used to stare at the moon and think about things that were really interesting for an hour, then write some shit like clair de lune. the new me is switching between discord and reddit and illmuzik and twitter 15 hours a day, just so the brain doesn't have to struggle or go back to thinking deeply about life, or Anything! (in fact I subconsciously checked for discord in background apps like 4 times by the end of writing this post...)
So I decided to get myself Completely offa social media for a week, and try to limit it to certain hours after that period is over. it's painful to miss the beat this though, that elevator one is a real challenge. I bet the Voting will be a pain in the ass with that sample playing 30 times
I probably had a rant about this sorta stuff before, and I definitely knew this trap before I fell into it, but I didn't notice that I'm falling in it until it was too late. the main reasons I wrote all this is not only to say why I won't be so active for a lil while, it's also a way to force myself not to check the site, because if I do then I'm not a man of my word so... I outsmarted the future me . this'll also get stored for anyone else who needs to notice how they can make their lives better if they made the same mistake as I did.
Thanks for reading. but I won't read any response until next week. HOPEFULLY.
so I decided to cool off, take things easy for a while and chill. what I didn't notice was that I turned my brain off, and got onto social media, which made me addicted to it. not because I couldn't stop or anything, because (A: This 1 girl, and B: ) I didn't want to stop! because I simply didn't want to think. seriously, life is a lot more fun when you don't have to worry about anything!
But a while ago I realized that not only I don't tend to think anymore, I also lost the ability to think. which is horrific. not only all my friends know me as the wise guy and they come for me for advice (LOL, Unimaginable but it's true), I also know me as the wise guy and ask myself for advice!! What advice can an addicted prick give me for my life?? besides, I'm pathetic! the old me used to stare at the moon and think about things that were really interesting for an hour, then write some shit like clair de lune. the new me is switching between discord and reddit and illmuzik and twitter 15 hours a day, just so the brain doesn't have to struggle or go back to thinking deeply about life, or Anything! (in fact I subconsciously checked for discord in background apps like 4 times by the end of writing this post...)
So I decided to get myself Completely offa social media for a week, and try to limit it to certain hours after that period is over. it's painful to miss the beat this though, that elevator one is a real challenge. I bet the Voting will be a pain in the ass with that sample playing 30 times
I probably had a rant about this sorta stuff before, and I definitely knew this trap before I fell into it, but I didn't notice that I'm falling in it until it was too late. the main reasons I wrote all this is not only to say why I won't be so active for a lil while, it's also a way to force myself not to check the site, because if I do then I'm not a man of my word so... I outsmarted the future me
. this'll also get stored for anyone else who needs to notice how they can make their lives better if they made the same mistake as I did.Thanks for reading. but I won't read any response until next week. HOPEFULLY.
ive got some distractions, even tho usually reserved to outside of music making hours, but I decided to go meet a few chicks n such instead recently. Now I kinda cba with those other distractions - once you had some time away from them you realise like 'eh, can't really be bothered with that'. Now the trick is deading the social media distractions. But building the habit of removing distractions! (i started writing this hourrrs ago)
