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Equality 7-2521
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ok im just gonna write some shit ive been thinking lately and maybe it will strike a cord in you or maybe you will get bored so make what you want of it.
i was just thinking. i used to have all these friends in school but as i persued my tennis career (tennis was my love before music came along)
i slowly lost contact with them. i found that i was leaving school early to go to the courts and instead of doing stuff with my school friends i would end up hanging with my tennis friends...we would just play tennis all day and then all do stuff together after when we were rooted. my school friends contacted me for a while but soon gave up calling me when they continuously found i was busy with tennis. i kinda feel like a cunt cos i should have made time for them cos they were my friends but i was so commited to tennis and i pretty much put it before every single thing in my life.....i mean, shit, i wanted to attain my goals. but at the same time i feel like i was kinda selfish. sometimes i wonder if they ever think about it or even give a shit.........i havnt seen them in so long, maybe they have completely forgotten. thinking about it now.....its been so long that it would probably be weird as fuck if i were to meet up with them again. we all would have changed so much since we knew each other well. anyway, so now i still hang with all my tennis friends but the funny thing is that now ive gotten into producing i hardly spend the time with them that i used to. now i just make music all the time and do some shit with them on the weekend. one of my tennis friends (we are honest as fuck to each other) has said to me that he reckons im sorta being selfish cos i dont do all the shit with them that i used to. and i undrstand what he is sayin. but at the same time i dont think he understands that i want to achieve my goals. for example he says shit to me like "all you do is make beats" which pisses me of because although i love making beats, i concider it to be work aswell....work which so far has made me no money at all......so i suppose it seems like nothing to everyone else even though i take it seriously, in the same way that i used to approach my tennis. so i feel myself slowly slipping away from my tennis friends and i dont know if i is inevitable. id regrett never knowing them again but i dont wanna sacrafice my chosen career. i dont wanna put in a half arsed effort and end up as some cunt with an mpc who can make a decent beat if you have a spare 50 bucks but sits behind a motherfucking desk with a pile of papers on it looking at the clock waiting impatiantly for it to pass the hour of 5 pm. fuck that shit i want to succeed. the way im going ill probly just end up making some friends in this music thing and not see my other friends as much. anyway, so yeah, im just thinking .....sometimes poeple just come and go. ive been friends with so many poeple that i havnt seen in years. i value true friendship very much (despite how it might seem). i concider true friends very important. i know that when one of my loved ones dies, it will be tough for me.....because i care. and i know that when im pissed of at anything i can just make jokes with friends and everything will be chill. i mean, shit, everyone needs friends. it would be pretty shit not having any friends. i wouldnt know from experiance cos ive always had friends but i can imagine it. people need to lean on other people. and i think its an ignorant person who says they dont need anybody. but i think the ones you need are the ones who you can trust and will help you out if you need help n shit. im chill with a fuck load of people but only a small bunch of them can i truly trust and have mutual respect with.
anyway, i just freestyled that crap^^^so i maybe i strayed from whatever the original topic was. word up to anyone who endured it....and word up to anyone who didnt endure it lol. either way, word up to the fact that we can all write whatever we want in this house.
peace
i was just thinking. i used to have all these friends in school but as i persued my tennis career (tennis was my love before music came along)
i slowly lost contact with them. i found that i was leaving school early to go to the courts and instead of doing stuff with my school friends i would end up hanging with my tennis friends...we would just play tennis all day and then all do stuff together after when we were rooted. my school friends contacted me for a while but soon gave up calling me when they continuously found i was busy with tennis. i kinda feel like a cunt cos i should have made time for them cos they were my friends but i was so commited to tennis and i pretty much put it before every single thing in my life.....i mean, shit, i wanted to attain my goals. but at the same time i feel like i was kinda selfish. sometimes i wonder if they ever think about it or even give a shit.........i havnt seen them in so long, maybe they have completely forgotten. thinking about it now.....its been so long that it would probably be weird as fuck if i were to meet up with them again. we all would have changed so much since we knew each other well. anyway, so now i still hang with all my tennis friends but the funny thing is that now ive gotten into producing i hardly spend the time with them that i used to. now i just make music all the time and do some shit with them on the weekend. one of my tennis friends (we are honest as fuck to each other) has said to me that he reckons im sorta being selfish cos i dont do all the shit with them that i used to. and i undrstand what he is sayin. but at the same time i dont think he understands that i want to achieve my goals. for example he says shit to me like "all you do is make beats" which pisses me of because although i love making beats, i concider it to be work aswell....work which so far has made me no money at all......so i suppose it seems like nothing to everyone else even though i take it seriously, in the same way that i used to approach my tennis. so i feel myself slowly slipping away from my tennis friends and i dont know if i is inevitable. id regrett never knowing them again but i dont wanna sacrafice my chosen career. i dont wanna put in a half arsed effort and end up as some cunt with an mpc who can make a decent beat if you have a spare 50 bucks but sits behind a motherfucking desk with a pile of papers on it looking at the clock waiting impatiantly for it to pass the hour of 5 pm. fuck that shit i want to succeed. the way im going ill probly just end up making some friends in this music thing and not see my other friends as much. anyway, so yeah, im just thinking .....sometimes poeple just come and go. ive been friends with so many poeple that i havnt seen in years. i value true friendship very much (despite how it might seem). i concider true friends very important. i know that when one of my loved ones dies, it will be tough for me.....because i care. and i know that when im pissed of at anything i can just make jokes with friends and everything will be chill. i mean, shit, everyone needs friends. it would be pretty shit not having any friends. i wouldnt know from experiance cos ive always had friends but i can imagine it. people need to lean on other people. and i think its an ignorant person who says they dont need anybody. but i think the ones you need are the ones who you can trust and will help you out if you need help n shit. im chill with a fuck load of people but only a small bunch of them can i truly trust and have mutual respect with.
anyway, i just freestyled that crap^^^so i maybe i strayed from whatever the original topic was. word up to anyone who endured it....and word up to anyone who didnt endure it lol. either way, word up to the fact that we can all write whatever we want in this house.
peace
