Cold Truth
IllMuzik Moderator
Ok, Ok, i know i'm absent. I've been absent for a loooong time, but you know something? This place is home for me. Sure is. I gotta get back in here a little more, but other communities i will not name just sorta got my attention because they are more diverse in terms of subject matter. Either way, this here is HOME. I love what Fade's done with the place. I love returning and seeing Stress posting up a joint with ras kass. I love seeing a GRIP of names i do not recognize in the least. Happy to see a few google ads up, hopefully Fade is bringing in a little income off this place.
As for me? Well, let me tell you! Honestly half of my absence really is personal. My life, well... hasn't been an easy one and I gotta say, it's been a LONG time since I was in a place as good as i am now mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc... I'm doing GOOD. I'm on the cusp, you know, on my way out of that dark place.
I finally got myself a solid job iwth the county, good starting pay at $12.22 an hour and i'll recieve two raises between now and January that will bring me to $15.62, all in 8 months. Like whoa! I lost my job back in 05 and believe it or not it's been since then since i've had a solid job like this. I've had a couple low paying joints that didn't work out so well, one doing water well drilling that went bad after two months, but i've been jobless for like half of this last five years so uhm... YEAH. This is kind of a big deal. Hell, i get benefits from my first paycheck! It's a great gig with a future I can actually map out.
Oh, and I got a girl, yup, 11 months strong! She's been amazing, i can't even begin to express what she's meant to me getting up and out of my doldrums. She's about to buy a house, I'm moving in, and when I got the feria to do so, I'm proposing. Yup! It's like THAT! Can't wait.
Spiritually, well, I rededicated myself to my faith in God, Christian sect, for those who care. It's weird trying to walk RIGHT. Like, i remember what I was before and while i had my beliefs... I didn't walk that straight and narrow. I guess I'm not there "yet" but it's a world of difference when you know you're walking different. I don't feel like a hypocrite anymore.
Musically? Well, it is what it is. I'm there and I'm not. I have plans for a website to monetize my beats, mostly older tracks to start, but I have a different approach right now and we'll see how that goes... but I haven't been immersed in my music the way I once was.
Lastly, I'm on that web tip for more then music. I have a few sites already created in my mind, I have ways to monetize them that are tried and true, and hopefully I can make those things work. We'll see, won't we?
Anyhow, I have posted up so much of the drama of my life throughout the years, I also wanted to share the upswing I'm on. I can't say I'll be here like I once was, though who knows... I just wanted to drop a line, let my friends know I'm still breathing, what I'm doing, say what's up, and let y'all know I haven't forgotten about you! Ill for life!
Peace and Blessings.
As for me? Well, let me tell you! Honestly half of my absence really is personal. My life, well... hasn't been an easy one and I gotta say, it's been a LONG time since I was in a place as good as i am now mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc... I'm doing GOOD. I'm on the cusp, you know, on my way out of that dark place.
I finally got myself a solid job iwth the county, good starting pay at $12.22 an hour and i'll recieve two raises between now and January that will bring me to $15.62, all in 8 months. Like whoa! I lost my job back in 05 and believe it or not it's been since then since i've had a solid job like this. I've had a couple low paying joints that didn't work out so well, one doing water well drilling that went bad after two months, but i've been jobless for like half of this last five years so uhm... YEAH. This is kind of a big deal. Hell, i get benefits from my first paycheck! It's a great gig with a future I can actually map out.
Oh, and I got a girl, yup, 11 months strong! She's been amazing, i can't even begin to express what she's meant to me getting up and out of my doldrums. She's about to buy a house, I'm moving in, and when I got the feria to do so, I'm proposing. Yup! It's like THAT! Can't wait.
Spiritually, well, I rededicated myself to my faith in God, Christian sect, for those who care. It's weird trying to walk RIGHT. Like, i remember what I was before and while i had my beliefs... I didn't walk that straight and narrow. I guess I'm not there "yet" but it's a world of difference when you know you're walking different. I don't feel like a hypocrite anymore.
Musically? Well, it is what it is. I'm there and I'm not. I have plans for a website to monetize my beats, mostly older tracks to start, but I have a different approach right now and we'll see how that goes... but I haven't been immersed in my music the way I once was.
Lastly, I'm on that web tip for more then music. I have a few sites already created in my mind, I have ways to monetize them that are tried and true, and hopefully I can make those things work. We'll see, won't we?
Anyhow, I have posted up so much of the drama of my life throughout the years, I also wanted to share the upswing I'm on. I can't say I'll be here like I once was, though who knows... I just wanted to drop a line, let my friends know I'm still breathing, what I'm doing, say what's up, and let y'all know I haven't forgotten about you! Ill for life!
Peace and Blessings.
