Cold Truth
IllMuzik Moderator
so, i attended my little brothers wedding on saturday. my stepsisters were there and plenty of pictures were taken. sunday i wake up at noon to a phone call from one of my sisters, saying her roomate saw a picture of me and wanted to meet me. cool, no problem.
so we meet and hit it off great. turns out we have a lot of shit in common- similar backgrounds, both creative types, have a lot of personality traits that made us two peas in a pod from jump street. so, you know, a little kiss here and there and i wind up spending the night. things get a little hot, and i let her know i dig her and i would rather chill and not go down that road like this. and thats the path i should have stayed on, cause i closed the deal and hit anyways it against my better judgment. and uhm...... shit was top 5. a marathon 3 hour session that left us both drained and satisfied. she even posted as much on myspace. lol.
anyhow i left and returned later the next day, and all was well. mostly we chilled, ran some errands and whatnot. we wound up gettin down again, twice, each time even better then the last. we chilled for the rest of the night and all day yesterday, until she had to work. we didn't get busy yesterday but we were real affectionate and learned alot more to like about each other.
so on the way back we start discussing the situation. she was a little worried because she wasn't sure if i was just there for the sex, kinda scared because we hit it off so quickly. so i told her, and i meant it, that if she didn't see potential for us to go anywhere real together, then i would rather not see her nay longer, because i like her and would rather work on building a real relationship then have a fuck buddy. i just don't want that from her. she breathed a sigh of relief and said she felt better, she doesn't really want a fling, etc and she says she would like to continue down that path. we made no commitments but understood that niether of us are-or will be- seeing anyone else. perfect! things look good.
so she decides she wants to see me again that night and tells me she's gonna pick me up after work, now of course she works late at an hour away and likely won't be at my place till 2:30 am and i said i'm cool with that. so 2:30 hits, then 3 and i call to make sure she's still coming or what. 3:45, and i call letting her know i'm off to bed but hey, just text and let me know your good and nothing bad happened.
anyhow, 5pm and still no word so i hit up my sister to see if everything is ok. turns out they went out, got home late, and then she had to take her "friend" home in the morning. now, i didn't ask who the friend was, male or female. all i wanted to know was if she was safe, since most people call when there is a change of plans, and at the very least have the sense to call when they have someone waiting on them at 3am when they change their plans like that. plus, where the fuck are you going out to that late? i don't think she even went to work to be honest.
course, i know the writing is on the wall and i'm a little bummed because i was hoping to see something come out of this. i know the signs and have seen it before, different stories and circumstances, different women, but it seems the second i give in to the idea that things it ends then and there. so yeah there is some common thread there with me but i can't figure it out- it's not as if it happens this way each time, this fast, etc. i could be trippin but i'm mentally moved on and out of this situation already cause the spidey sense is tingling.
but yeah, this is pretty much why i avoid even attempting to establish any sort of a relationship.
so we meet and hit it off great. turns out we have a lot of shit in common- similar backgrounds, both creative types, have a lot of personality traits that made us two peas in a pod from jump street. so, you know, a little kiss here and there and i wind up spending the night. things get a little hot, and i let her know i dig her and i would rather chill and not go down that road like this. and thats the path i should have stayed on, cause i closed the deal and hit anyways it against my better judgment. and uhm...... shit was top 5. a marathon 3 hour session that left us both drained and satisfied. she even posted as much on myspace. lol.
anyhow i left and returned later the next day, and all was well. mostly we chilled, ran some errands and whatnot. we wound up gettin down again, twice, each time even better then the last. we chilled for the rest of the night and all day yesterday, until she had to work. we didn't get busy yesterday but we were real affectionate and learned alot more to like about each other.
so on the way back we start discussing the situation. she was a little worried because she wasn't sure if i was just there for the sex, kinda scared because we hit it off so quickly. so i told her, and i meant it, that if she didn't see potential for us to go anywhere real together, then i would rather not see her nay longer, because i like her and would rather work on building a real relationship then have a fuck buddy. i just don't want that from her. she breathed a sigh of relief and said she felt better, she doesn't really want a fling, etc and she says she would like to continue down that path. we made no commitments but understood that niether of us are-or will be- seeing anyone else. perfect! things look good.
so she decides she wants to see me again that night and tells me she's gonna pick me up after work, now of course she works late at an hour away and likely won't be at my place till 2:30 am and i said i'm cool with that. so 2:30 hits, then 3 and i call to make sure she's still coming or what. 3:45, and i call letting her know i'm off to bed but hey, just text and let me know your good and nothing bad happened.
anyhow, 5pm and still no word so i hit up my sister to see if everything is ok. turns out they went out, got home late, and then she had to take her "friend" home in the morning. now, i didn't ask who the friend was, male or female. all i wanted to know was if she was safe, since most people call when there is a change of plans, and at the very least have the sense to call when they have someone waiting on them at 3am when they change their plans like that. plus, where the fuck are you going out to that late? i don't think she even went to work to be honest.
course, i know the writing is on the wall and i'm a little bummed because i was hoping to see something come out of this. i know the signs and have seen it before, different stories and circumstances, different women, but it seems the second i give in to the idea that things it ends then and there. so yeah there is some common thread there with me but i can't figure it out- it's not as if it happens this way each time, this fast, etc. i could be trippin but i'm mentally moved on and out of this situation already cause the spidey sense is tingling.
but yeah, this is pretty much why i avoid even attempting to establish any sort of a relationship.
