Yeah I know exactly how you feel. I recently had this temp job at a factory (powder coating, fuckin hazardous to my health) working like 40 hours a week. Four 10 hour shifts, monday thru thursday. All day they were blasting classic rock (some of which is definitely ill, like pink floyd, zeppelin, santana, war, etc... but some of which fucking sucks dick like van halen, poison and tons of other crap) or "new" rock (again, some of which I like, Alice in Chains, Soundgarden etc... and crap that makes me sick like "linkin park" and tons of other bullshit) I felt like I was just being bombarded by this predominantly wack music (affecting my enjoyment of music, and my taste) and selling my body to this job cause I was seriously inhaling a shitload of dust. They let me go after two weeks, cause I told them I wanted to wear a mask. In retrospect, I'm glad i lost the job. That job fucking sucked. One good thing I got out of the job was a hookup for phat bags of homegrown.
But yeah, I get beat cravings alot. Its ridiculous when I'm high. One night I had ton's of studying to do for a class, and i was a little blazed up, and I just started tappin and bangin on the table really feelin the beat in my head. I ended up just blowing off the studying for some quality FL therapy. Thats really all it is for me. At this point the only reason I make beats is for personal enjoyment. It is like a drug. It gets us high and we are addicted to it.
I think its a good drug/hobby to use/have. There is always the possibility of success in the music industry, which is unlikely, but would definitely be sweet. Last spring I was just feelin like "damn, these beats are sick, I'm gonna be the next Dr. Dre, I don't need to be in college, once these beats get heard, I'm set" and I got really close to just bailing on the semester, but I ended up finishing it with mediocre grades. Now that I see just how many people feel/felt like me I realize that I need to take advantage of school as much as possible. Right now I definitely want to go to law school. Knowing the laws of my country and state would better allow me to "get what I want" and "do as I please". I don't give a fuck if people hate me cause I'm a lawyer. Lawyers can seriously get like anything done. Our criminal justice system is proof of that. If I wanted to be in the music industry, a degree in law would help me out tremendously. Maybe one day I will start an independent label. Music is a great hobby, which will allow me to stay more sober, and have fun @ home while studying for college and keeping me out of trouble (i'm prolly gonna be on probation for a few years, check out my last post in the june 10-12 showcase for an explanation) .
Usually some of my best shit comes out after a break. Sometimes when I hit the studio, I get the feeling that I'm like forcing myself to make music and thats usually a good indicator that it is time to take a break.
Don't smoke crack kids, look what happens to ya